I feel so foolish - Can't seem to let him go with everything in my life being so stressful!!?

[wahchintonka48]

I'm in hell at the moment - Work has become really horrid, I am being bullied by two women and no matter how much I speak to management about it they dont seem to understand or do anything about it!!
I moved into a new rental property last week so I could be closer to work.....I have a six month contract with the agency and work is awful....I just want to leave.....
I've realised I am not supported unfortunately and the supervisions I am meant to have in order to de-breif never happen, training isnt available and in all I've really had enough.
I am looking and applying for other jobs....however I may have to move again in order to take the job which I really don't want to do :(
I have bronchitus at the moment but havent taken any time off because I do not want to look weak or as if work is bring me down I need time out....
I am trying to stay strong!!
I met a guy last October who was really great for about three weeks...he then turned into a total player...
Christmas was a nightmare because he played with my mind and kept me hanging, didnt call me back and was general horrid.
I feel I have learnt alot from it and he does still keep in touch however I either ignore his texts or leave his phone calls.
Yesterday he contacted me asking if I wanted to meet up - stupidly I said yes!!
We went out last night and it was a good night, he seemed his old self and was on good form.
He wants to meet up again tonight however all night I kept saying to myself 'what are you doing!!'
I havent told any of my mates about it because they would hit the roof and be angry.
I feel foolish for seeing him but at the same time through all the rubbish it lifted my mood and made me feel better.
I feel I can control the situation however when he kisses me my head spins which I know isnt a good thing!!
I can't help feeling I was just the one that got away and he is just trying to add another notch to his bedpost (I never slept with him)
A lepoard never changes his spots right?!
I know I'm heading for a fall but I can't seem to stop myself....what am I doing???

[archy]

You're feeling rejected at work, insecure about your living arrangements, physically ill, alone, and that all adds up to supreme vulnerability.

So here comes the Leopard. No his spots didn't change. Last night he was okay, it probably felt wonderful to have someone be nice to you, and pay attention to you, and kiss you and treat you good. He knows that. He knows you.

You're not thinking straight and you're vulnerable, Listen to your friends. Listen to your heart - it's telling you the truth, he wants to "add another notch to his bedpost." "A leopard never changes his spots..." That's your heart speaking to you, your intuition, your gut, knows what's going on. I hope you listen.

[aingeni]

If he betrays you a second time never take him back, concentrate more on work it's more important look at the criticism as helpful.