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[marmion]

It's impossible to express...
Hi, I’m Having a random break down…
I’m going to post this is a lot of places. For the small chance SHINee may read this…Under a lot of stress right now in my life, the one thing keeping me going is SHINee and my best friend, literally that’s it. With my age, at first I thought it was a good goal to want to move to Korea and meet SHINee. Alas, My mom will not let me go, ever, and because of my dads job, I’m not supposed to talk to foreigners. That much I don’t listen to, and I still had a goal, after I tern 18, start a trip to South Korea, but then I realized by the time I get there, What will SHINee be doing?

The military law of Korea is every man must serve for two years, Most kpop stars wait till they are 29, then they go, so they can make music longer. So I am 16. Onew is 23, If I wait 2 years he will be 25. By the time I actually get the money to go though, who knows. If it is right when I’m 18, That goal can maybe be reached, buy am I rich, no.

The story I heard recently about the dying girl who got to meet them, she really deserved to meet her, and if I was dying, my last wish would be to see SHINee. I read all the times fans get to meet them, and some are not deserving…. It pains me when I read SHINee holds out a hand to a crying fan and she slaps the hand aside for Taemin, not Jonghyun…That is not a true SHAWOL. I read that story and cried, not the fan one the touching one about the dying girl. Again I thought somebody sent her to Korea…My mom would never do that.

SHINee has inspired me threw my entire passion in dance, I know a lot of their dances and they are my Idols. I started crying today because I realized I will most likely never be able to meet them. I live in Colorado, a place where there is nothing, and I will never see a kpop concert in Colorado. My mom will also never let me go to California.

If I got to meet SHINee, My life would be made…even if I got just a phone call from them I would be happy because I know they probably won’t ever fly from Korea, to Colorado just to see a depressed fan…
Why should I of all people get to meet SHINee? Well I know there are people way more deserving, like the girl who got to meet them recently in the wheel chair. I think I should meet SHINee or at least talk to them because I want them to know how much I support them, but can’t afford to. How much they inspire me. Also how they saved my life. Yes, they saved my life. Shortly after loosing my grandpa, I found there music, I was mentally stable then, but after a wile I met a guy, Seph, I was really close to him..he died recently and I had nowhere to go. On top of that my beliefs where rejected by 90% of society, my best friend is the only one who understands me 100%. I remember I smiled when I heard Sherlock, I had not smiled since Seph died. Again sad, but SHINee supported me, though I was still mentally stable. Alas one night after a few months of everything building up, First, My best friend and I couldn’t see each other for about two years, we see each other now but this was back in the middle of it, Not because she moved away or anything, but because her parents hated me. Then My dad didn’t believe that Seph was ever a person in my life, and of all things he told me to get over it. On top of that, The school I am at will not help me, the schools I want to go to wont take me because I’m to retarded. So I’m screwed, That really bothers me. I’m only dyslexic, But to a pretty high extent. Society won’t except me, If my parents knew me for me i’d be kicked out of the house. All that and then some was building up in my heart and soul and my patients was gone. Then I lost it, I literally went to go suicide, with what sanity I had left I went online and found A YO. It saved me. I read the English lyrics and broke down, I felt like SHINee told me to not give up and keep going, and now all I want to do is tell them how much they mean to me. I don’t think my friend even knows this, though we had a similar situation on her side recently.

I’m going to put my email at the bottom of this. If the small chance SHINee read this because I am going to post this in places where they may see it. I know I may get haters from this and I ask you not to troll me. I used all my true emotion in this and I don’t need a troll to make me loose it again. That’s happened once before. If you want to contact me or have connections to SHINee somehow, please E-mail me. Here are a few finishing words and vows.

1. The person who makes me depressed in this situation is actually Justin Beiber, you see him meeting his fans just about every time they cry or call. SHINee can’t do that because they are in Korea. I guess I’m trying anyway considering this randomly hit me. It’s been building but lets just say I cried for an hour before I actually decided to type this. I promise never to share or abuse any personal info. email: [email protected] or [email protected]

[iden]

just ask their forums :)

http://www.facebook.com/shineeenet
http://www.shineee.net/
https://twitter.com/#!/sfinee
http://shineeenet.livejournal.com/
http://www.smtown.com/