How can I find my "passion"? My "ultimate interest"?

[sylvester37]

I've had many hobbies, but I've never stuck with one long enough to make much of it. I always just considered them as temporary time-killers. But I know so many people who have true "passions", "ultimate interests"...some kind of talent or interest that they've been able to succeed in to the extent of either making money off of, or simply enjoying life with!

For example, one sister-in-law turned her photography and arts'n'crafts hobbies into a full fledged business: people hire her for weddings and family portraits, and on top of taking the pictures, she'll frame them perfectly, and even turn them into jewelry and other accessories. Another sister-in-law turned her random interest in playing with a video camera into a small company too: it's mainly within the family, but she videotapes the weddings, parties, reunions, and then sells copies of them to other family members at $10 a pop (made almost $500 at last years reunion!). The 3rd sister of this family had a major passion for baking, went to culinary school, and found her ultimate job at a local bakery, baking and decorating cakes. Then I have a friend who doesn't make any money off of hers, but she's a fabulous decorator; a regular Martha Stewart and entertains herself by planning and hosting a major monthly event (a BBQ, a wine tasting, etc).

I just don't feel like I have an ultimate "passion". I've played the piano since I was 8 (27 now), and while everyone tells me I'm great, I don't have the self-confidence or the nerve to put it to any use. I almost panicked when I played one song at my own wedding; I couldn't hire myself out to perform! I love photography and videography, and people have also commented me on what they see of mine there, but anytime I even have the slightest urge to consider doing anything with it, I think of my sister-in-laws and think: "geez, I'm nowhere near as good as them. It's not worth trying to compete!"

My other "passions" are worthless: video games and blogging. I have nothing worth blogging about that wouldn't just cause more stress (i.e. talking about my political views would just rev me up, and then the responses from people who disagree with get my blood pressure up everyday!)

As a stay at-home mom, I'd love to find a hobby that I'm good and unique at that I could make some extra money off of. But I just don't know what I can do that's worth anything! Even if money wasn't the goal, I can't think of anything to look into that wouldn't cost us money!

[aviya]

You have to figure it out yourself, otherwise it will be someone else's, and not truly yours.