I think I have ADHD what should I do and who should I talk to?

[choviohoya]

Hello everyone I'm 15 and I was researching ADHD for homework and I found that I matched some of the symptoms of ADHD. I have listed them below and I just need a second opinion and maybe some help and advice from maybe someone who is going through the same thing.
1. I find it hard to organize myself
2. I find it hard to remember important details and deadlines
3. I get headaches and stressed out when I can't remember classwork or have trouble doing homework
4. I miss place personal items
5. I get easily upset and distressed
6. I have suicidal thoughts
7. I fidget a lot
8. I have panic attacks
9. I sometimes don't think before I speak or do something, and usually deeply regret my actions
10. I have trouble sleeping at night
11. I only do well in subjects I like in school, such as art, and this can have and effect on my English and science which disappoints my parents
12. I get confused more than other people in my class and cannot remember things as well
13. I have physically hurt myself in the past
14. I feel very self conscious about my body and always think people are against me and talking behind my back
15. I find it difficult to read written materials and often get bored between books (and activities and subjects)
16. I often daydream and find it hard to stay focused
17. I get upset easily and angry easily (but I try to hide it so I don't upset anyone)
18. I have high up and down mood swings
19. I often get headaches
20. sometimes the things I have to do and tasks I have to complete bounce around in my head and I feel as though I want to bash my head against a window and let it all out.
21. I feel like I am compelled and forced to do something when it comes to completing task and organizing myself
22. Feel different to most people in my school

May I just say that number 6 and number 13 are both points I am not proud of, and it was difficult to write these things, but I am I confused as to why I have suicidal thoughts. I always thought that I was letting everything get on top of me and that I was the stupid one in my class for not remembering things. My parents have always been upset with me, from a very young age, for losing things, forgetting things, speaking out of term and for fidgeting, and say I am just lazy. This has always lead me to believe that I am a stupid, lazy girl who needs to get her life right, and I could find no reason as to why I couldn't do these things. The points above often cause me to be distressed, angry with my parents, panic and worry in social and normal situations and cause me to have panic attacks and headaches.
I took a few tests on the internet and they say I have got ADHD. However I don't trust the internet completely, and I want to get a second opinion and advice on what to do before I go to my parents making accusations that I may have ADHD. I know I am not the only one who feels this way and advice from someone with experience would mean a lot to me. Thank you

[fitche]

Welcome to being human. This is just like the rest of us. I think ADHD is not even a real thing. It's just something made up by parents so they don't have to deal with their annoying kids by subdueing them with meds.

[fiacre68]

Welcome to being human. This is just like the rest of us. I think ADHD is not even a real thing. It's just something made up by parents so they don't have to deal with their annoying kids by subdueing them with meds.

its no big deal

[orson19]

Welcome to being human. This is just like the rest of us. I think ADHD is not even a real thing. It's just something made up by parents so they don't have to deal with their annoying kids by subdueing them with meds.

its no big deal

I don't think you have adhd, but no one can accurately diagnose you over the internet. Adhd is a real condition. You obviously have some problems. I suggest talking to a counselor at school or asking your parents to see a psychologist.