by boynton35 » Tue Jul 17, 2012 11:03 am
in 95 i was arrested for manufacturing crack less than 5grams and school zone based on a detective saying i sold to him which i didn't i plead to the manufacturing n they dropped the school zone and gave me 6months as i had defaulted n gotten arrested for disorderly person n disturbing the peace n so i did 3months a was released on parole. Truth is i was just scared i was 18 n had little to no experience with the court system not to mention i was scared to death n they knew it so my court appointed attorney threw me to the wolves n in 2007 immigration destroyed my family, a wife and 3 children and i really didn't do it. I'm no angel but damn, its this we were living in the projects so i was targeted because i wouldn't do their job for em like they asked but we had to live there n they didn't n my wife was pregnant at the time so her safety had to b first. since then i heard the detectives who arrested me were all under investigation for corruption n subsequently let go or the cover-up word "retired" now my oldest son(17) went from honors class to lead gang member n is currently locked in juve then my second oldest(13) has adhd among other things n hes struggling with the world n wants to follow his brothers direction n i was in custody in 2007 when my youngest was born n i was deported in 09 so iv'e met him when my wife could afford to bring him here a couple times but that's it n he's out of control at age(4) n my wife is on so much medication it breaks my heart. so you guys see my dilemma, i made mistakes in life since i had no family for guidance or to love me,i never knew love until i met my wife. i was thrown on da streets by my brother because i wouldn't sell drugs for him anymore since his wife call the police when he bought me a pair of sneakers instead of getting her something so they argued n i was in jail(first time ever in my life, i was 17 n that's how the courts started in my life)n left there for the weekend(fri-mon) on $25 bail because he said he knew they would release me on monday but yrs later it hit me that it was so he could make up with his wife smh anyway i begged my other "brother " to let me sleep there so he put me on the floor (spare bed was for visitors) but told me to leave when my wife spent a night with me (@ the time she was pregnant with our first son) so i was moving from friend to friend or sleeping in hallways until my beautiful mother-in-law(MOM) let me use her couch(i know but we weren't married yet lol) n my wife n i been together ever since, more than half our lives so i gotta save my family but i don't know how to approach it since we're the poorer class and nothing's meant to work for us. we've been told it can b done but can't afford their prices and its been 5yrs my family been going through this. i don't want my children to live like i had to, i had no choice about my life since it was forced on me but my sons don't deserve this and i let em down as a father because it was my job to protect em n there's much more but i'm tearing up so u guys input is appreciated. sorry about the length i had not intended to write this much.