by gillian59 » Thu Aug 02, 2012 7:40 am
I hate my life. I have no friends. I have relatives at quite a distance that I can lean on, but not on a deep level. I have "in-laws" that are complete idiots with no common sense. I've become a pitiful excuse for a mother. I have another baby on the way and I'm destined to raise my kids on my own. I'm in a dead end job and can't get in a position to support my family, let alone afford school due to lack of time and money. I can't see a psychiatrist because I have nobody to watch my kids after work.The father of my children is a complete loser and can't be depended on. I wish I could go back in time and change my life, make better decisions, surround myself with better people. But that's not reality. Sometimes I feel like I'd be better off dead. All I'm doing is taking up oxygen and raising kids destined to have a crappy life.