What can I do to make things better and pass my course?

[croslea]

Hey I am 24 and from the republic of Ireland in North west.

I haven't been diagnosed yet but my educational and clinical psychologist says I have a motor delay and Dyspraxia tendencies.

I am currently on a university access program which is entry to university, to give you foundation level on each topic that would be studied at 3rd level in college or university but we have to do Study skills, Career Educational Guidance and Applied writing on the course.

I feel very indecisive.

I have been in special school from 8-18 due to slow learning and have not really any knowledge of science or maths past Fetac level 3 which only goes as far as angles.

Not having enough knowledge has caused me to be unaware of: vitamins, illnesses, the way our world works and what we and the world are made of and where we came from and what our purpose is and how our body functions and the role the brain or mind has on our body and that there is a consciousness and subconsciousness and that we are atoms and electrons which is energy and there is no accept ion to that and energy cannot be destroyed so what happens our energy then when we die if energy cannot be destroyed? There are so many theories.

Anyway, my study skills lecturer feels that I should do the Arts course because having Dyspraxia may go against me when doing science she said and others may make fun of me or something. Anyway, I have already missed 2 classes of Maths. She also wants me to do Economics other than the Junior cert Maths.

I would like to have proper maths and science as a qualification so that I can judge myself between creationism, religion and science and spirituality. I am very curious. When my study skills lecture-er said that having Dyspraxia could go against me, I was thinking "I can never do science because of my disability and that thought really brought me down and my confidence has gone down a bit because of that and now I feel like I have no choice, what can I do that is important to me, what can I do that matters in this world instead of just teaching or counseling? I have lost hope and am now really indecisive because | am also a christian and believe that when I die, what I have career I have done or what achievements I have made won't matter when I die and am judged by Jesus. So should I not spend my life trying to know more about Jesus, the past and afterlife???

I failed in my essay Is capital punishment ever justified and I had to say sometimes it is justified but I went way over the 1000 word count and have to repeat that as well as doing The Effects of Global warming. The essay that I must repeat has to be handed in the week after this week but there is no one to one support or resource teacher in the college I am in.

I am struggling with:

organising my folder
understanding questions and instructions
understanding what I am supposed to do
understanding what I need
taking down notes in a lecture in time
keeping up with the lecture=er
keeping to the point
coming up to a conclusion on what is mentioned in a lecture-er
saying what skills I have developed or learned
what method of learning I have used etc.
answering questions in time in a lecture-er
understanding numbers in economics
understanding what is relevant and irrelevant.

I feel like I am gonna fail the whole course.

I am expected to write out an action plan and do a 2minute presentation on it and write out a summary of my self assessments which is used to match me to my ideal career. I must hand all this in by this Saturday and give the 2 minute presentation this Saturday as well as work on my journal which I just passed on effort and my two essays and summarising of an exercise in Applied writing and complete all my exercises in Study skills.

The study skills lecture-er spent time with me one for an hour and once for 15 minutes but she is really busy and whenever I try to express my feelings about the course topics, students in my class, and my aspirations etc she just says that is ok or just changes the subject or ignores me. I am trying to inform her about my indecisiveness, what is important to me in life and that I am struggling with keeping up and understanding certain things in Study skills and applied writing.

I feel like I am going to fail the course just because of difficulties and barriers I am facing. I was shown once how to organise my work.

[giulio]

strudy harder