Am I crazy??????????????????

[roche]

I am generally a nice person and don't harm anyone in anyway. My problem is that I have very strong moral views in my head and I can't forgive anyone. People say you should follow the law. Well I have no problems with basic laws that prevent people from killing, scamming and stealing. However I disagree with making drugs like weed illegal when alcohol causes more damage but is legal. So I have no regard for the law in aspects like that and wont care if I see a drug dealer selling weed. I will see him as an uneducated pharmacist.

Also because i'm nice to people some people see it as weakness and may be disrespectful or try to take advantage. I will stop people from taking advantage but when people continually disrespect me I have to remove them or myself otherwise I will need to kill them literally. There was an incident 2 years ago where I was scammed and I still want to kill him so I moved because if I see him again I will need to kill him or be repaid what was scammed from me with an apology.

I want to live a good life, help myself and others but if I ever have bad experiences where i'm extremely disrespected there needs to be justice or I will kill them. For this reason I don't deal with women because from experience they always try to push boundaries and I will kill if they cross the line. In college I had to avoid women because of how rude they could be. One girl told me to "fcuk off" when I asked for directions because she though I was trying to hit on her. It took every ounce of my strength to not beat her on the spot.

I'm generally around males because they generally don't disrespect other guys for some reason. They usually know the breaking and don't keep pushing like girls do. What am I to do? I don't want to go to therapy because they might put some stuff on my record which might be used as an excuse to put me in prison, give me bad drugs, or take away my children one day.

With the last girl I dated I just took out my sim card and never contacted her. I have had to do this a few times with people because they already crossed my breaking point, I could not forgive them and didn't want to hurt them so I cut them off.

[orson19]

OMG your such a nice person and everybody takes advantage and stuff, i feel you