Do I really love him? Am I'm obsessed? Am I a stalker? Or is it just puppy love?

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Well there's this guy I’ve liked for a really long time a year and a half I think well the beginning of the story is complicated so I’m not going to go into detail but at the beginning of me liking him he knew it liked him but hated me but I just couldn't hate him I loved him to much so I watched him from afar for a year and he started talking to me and he even asked for a pencil from me in class but while I watched him from afar I learned this the way he talked, walked, smiled, laughed, breathed, wrote, blinked, what made him happy, sad, mad, anxious, embarrassed, annoyed, what kind of stuff he liked I checked his facebook everyday since I got one and I have a pic of him from is facebook on my computer I think about before I go to sleep and when I wake up but I don't think he knows I like him anymore so he doesn't know any of this he has a gf and just today I found out he had sex with her about 2 months ago I’m devastated I cried for hour but then again I cry for hours when I got moved out of the only class I had with him am I a stalker I don’t watch him at night from his window or anything and I don't follow him around but every time I see him I watch him till he leaves my field of vision and my heart skips a beat when he is close to me and my heart is in my throat when I talk to him and I breath heavy and I know if he ever hugged me I would cry from happiness and if he ever kissed me I would faint but do I love him am I obsessed I’ve read manga where when someone loves someone else they do stuff like this but every time I talk about to my friends they say I stalk him or I don't love him I don't see anything wrong with what I’m doing but do you do I need help or should I tell him the whole truth about how I feel should I give up now that I know he slept with someone or should I have more faith in him and believe it’s just a rumor I think I will always love him ... no I know I will always love him no matter what happens but I need to know if I need to stop what I’m doing take action keep watching him from afar or maybe be more ... stalker like I don't know anything anymore I need help on what to do so please help me.

[bellden]

.Better to get this fantasy out of your head.You're blinding yourself to other oppotunities by this obsession.He's enjoying life,and you should too

[baigh]

i was like that too one year with the guy i liked. iwas obsessesed and when i saw him the next year hugging girls and stuff i used to get jelous and then when he got a girlfriend, it like broke my heart... but i decided to get over him and it took months especailly since i reallly liked him but i am slowly getting over this obsession. like, i dont think about him as much but still react when hes close to me and stuff but try making urself get over this guy... its too distracting unless u confess ur feelings or something and he likes u back then thats great! =) but dont get into a fantasy and have too much hope.