Everyone I like, is out of my league. Or is it? Tell me I am wrong...?

[abisha]

I am 23. I've been an above average student throughout school, and used to be hailed for my intelligence. But the problem was, there was no tangible evidence of it (no prizes, medals, certificates etc). The only girls I used to like, scored grades way more than I did and were far more talented. They used to be friends with other guys who were equally talented...sort of like the "Alphas" of the class. So there you go...felt like I've never really had a shot with them especially when they were surrounded by sporty jocks who even studied well.

In college, due to various reasons my grades have significantly deteriorated, although I am a celebrated guitarist in a few circles around me. Even now, I am only attracted to girls who happen to be extremely focused on their studies and measure other people through achievements...something where I simply don't add up enough to make significant impact.

In short, I'm always falling for girls who are out of my league. The girls who are "in my league"...those with the same achievements and accolades as I do are either too ugly, too boring or those with a vast sexual history.

I'm frustrated about why I'm hardwired like this. Even my family is full of high-achievers who've made it into top colleges in India. Even my sister is in the best law school of the country. I, on the other hand am in one of the above-average engineering colleges.

I don't know what to do...can't really find anyone suitable for me. Even if I do like someone, she usually rejects me. What saddens me more, is that even if I choose to persist, I lack substance to justify it. A super-jock in my place would say "Hey, what's wrong with me? I have an awesome job, and I look okay! Your parents would love me!". I have nothing to boast about!