I am 19 years old and for most of my life ive been an outsider, I just don't give a fck about 90% of what people are going on about. For instance I dont care about NFL and NBA like most males my age, I hate radio music yet its the only "music" 90% of people know. I hate watching TV with the exception of Comedy Central, Educational/nature shows, and Russia Today I think people who sit through shows like Bad girls club, Jersey shore, and secret life of american teen should die slowly. For years I thought something was wrong with ME, then I started realizing I was just more intelligent and had a natural yearning for information. I am not a nerd, I performed fairly average through high school although my standardized test scores are always advanced, I hated the fact that I was forced to learn things worthless to me. I had a few close friends and many associates but they never seem to last long, I literally pretended to be interested in these people but eventually I couldn't keep the act up, most of my relationships now revolve around weed which I use to fill the emptiness in my soul.
I get really uncomfortable when Im around people I know wont understand me or be interested in half the things I want to talk about, im even the outsider at work I tend to stay to myself now. I guess you can label me a "conspiracy theorist" for listening to Alex Jones and supporting Ron Paul, I realize with Mandatory universal health care NDAA, NDRP, CISPA, and the UN gun treaty the NWO is almost complete, I dont even care about warning people anymore I just want to party and get laid a bunch of times before shyt hits the fan. Even though I secretly hate the type of people im going on about I can either live my life alone in misery or adapt so how can I bi pass all the things I know and just focus on myself and my own selfish desires?

