I am suicidal due to a medical condition.. Can somebody help me?

[langford59]

I am a 34 years old married man with a 19 months old son.. I have been suffering from pain in the back bone for last 3 years.. due to which I am not able to work.. I am the only earning member in my family.. I have been without a job for past 8 months..
My medical reports show compression of nerve in L4 and L5 vertebrae.. because of which I'm not able to perform normal daily activities..
I am in need of funds for my treatment.. I dont have any insurance neither I can go for any loan as I am not working
I have a 1.5 year old son.. every time I look at him I feels guilty.. I can't even take care of him.. I dont want to live anymore.. but I am worried about my son..
I don't know what to do..
Is there any way to raise some funds??
I don't have any property or belongings so that I can get some loan against it..
Can I ask people to donate??..
Ive not been able to pay the rent, bills etc for last 4 months.. My land lord has issued me a notice and will deduct the rent amount from the deposit.. and if the deposit money is gone, I won't be able to rent another place..
I'm a computer technician working from home now a days.. but its not helping me at all..
My wife has a problem too and she can't working either..
Ours was an inter caste marriage.. so my family has been against it..
My mother in law is a widow and a psychotic.. she stays with us..
I'm thinking about giving away my son for adoption so that I can die.. can I do that? What are the legal formalities required??
I'm in urgent need of Rs. 40K to pay off everything.. That amount will take care of my problems for now.. I dont even have money for food.. The shopkeeper has stopped further credit..
I'm selling out household things.. I have a Dell N50 laptop and I want to sell it for 20k..
Plz help me..
Can somebody help me??
Plz??
Please get in touch with me through email..

[bothan]

Start by getting help from your local food pantry. You will need help of a social worker to help you find other services.

[augustus]

My dear brother ,

Be strong & courageous , the hope & courage lies in the heart & mind and not in the muscles & bones, be cheerful , have hope in yourself , dont look at the problems, think how you can solve the problems, for every problem there is way & you have to think again & again & find that way , ask help for your family , friends, i believe that your family will help you out. don't think negatively, let me know where do you live , your contact no.so that i can help you as much as i can. i will be praying for you.

[maddox]

you are strong. God is with you through this hard time. Turn to the food bank for help. also you can talk about getting funds and stuff. god bless you. its not worth killing yourself over. everything gets better, i promise!!:)