I don't know what to do anymore, should I just end my life?

[curran]

My life been pretty hard well when I was in middle and high school I was made fun badly. Well it gotten worse as times goes by I've been with this guy for 6 years and we were about to get engaged, but then he broke up with me and he never seen me since I love him very much and I was excited to marry him, but why would he do this to me after all those years? Also I'm trying to find a job so I can help my parents pay bills, but no luck so far and I've been applying jobs for almost a year now and no luck...I want to help them especially after my dad got a lawsuit for malpractice he was a neurosurgeon, he gave $1,000,000 to the family of the patient since the patient was deceased and he lost his licenses so since he lost his license my parents and I are struggling we had to sell our home, now we live in a trailer and struggling with bills...it's just so hard now and I done nothing to help them because I couldn't find a job, I can't afford to live on my own so I'm stuck with my parents. I was really sick and I went to the doctor they found out I have Non-Hodgkin's Lymphoma, so I had to have chemo and I lost all my hair...I look like a freak now with no hair. I lost faith in God because I tried praying for God to make things better but it never work. I know my future is grim. I don't want to get out of this house anymore because I'm just sick of life and I want to find a way to end my life.

[merla15]

Well, I have many of the same problems, lived in a trailer, owe out $100,000 in bills, severe health issues. I find that in time it gets better. In time

[wardell]

Please don't end your life!! I'm very sorry about your illness, i'm not sure about this but i hope they can find a cure, make sure your showing up to all of your treatments and taking all the doctors advice!

You need to get a job, this will make you much happier! If theres any local careers advisors or job centres go to them and tell them you really need help. Perhaps update your CV, make sure it looks smart and formal and if you do get any job interviews, make yourself as friendly and presentable as you can! There should be job centres that can help you with this. I'm not sure if you have any qualifications but even if you don't start off with a simple job such as cleaning, working in a shop or bar and work your way up!

Forget about school, its over! Look back and laugh because you were the better person for not being a bully! People usually make fun of people because their jealous, they have nothing better to do.

As for guys, useless!! Forget about him, look for a new love! I had my heartbroken by my best friend now i laugh because i've found someone new who makes me so happy! There is always love out there!

I hope this helps! :)

[salvadore94]

Please don't end your life!! I'm very sorry about your illness, i'm not sure about this but i hope they can find a cure, make sure your showing up to all of your treatments and taking all the doctors advice!

You need to get a job, this will make you much happier! If theres any local careers advisors or job centres go to them and tell them you really need help. Perhaps update your CV, make sure it looks smart and formal and if you do get any job interviews, make yourself as friendly and presentable as you can! There should be job centres that can help you with this. I'm not sure if you have any qualifications but even if you don't start off with a simple job such as cleaning, working in a shop or bar and work your way up!

Forget about school, its over! Look back and laugh because you were the better person for not being a bully! People usually make fun of people because their jealous, they have nothing better to do.

As for guys, useless!! Forget about him, look for a new love! I had my heartbroken by my best friend now i laugh because i've found someone new who makes me so happy! There is always love out there!

I hope this helps! :)

look , first of all the guys that made fun of you are just nobody..they were just jealous of how perfect you are..4get about them..they were the past..and then the man who rejected you , may be he just dont deserve you and may be the god wants to save you for someone special..in fact you shud be happy that you knew what kind of jerk he is b4 the wedding , or else your life would be ruined :) ...and third, i know how you are feeling to lost all your hairs :(...but you are only living for yourself...you dont live to impress anyone...remember this that you matters the most ;)....and how could you even think of ending your life??? you want to leave your parents alone in this emotionless world..after a hurricane there is a rainbow...everything will be okay...you just have to believe in yourself and fight against this world for you and your parents..c'mon you can do it ;)