I have a Mental Problem.?

[abelard29]

I have had many therapists , I'm 20 years old now. Last therapist put a restraining order on me.
Anyways, my last therapist said I have a personality disorder but wouldn't tell me which one it is so I'm here to figure out what she was onto.
Here are my sever symptoms that I have been struggling with since I was a child

- Do not Trust anyone, not my family not my friends not even animals.
-Have extreme anger but keep it all inside, rage is at my core
-I don't care about anyone else but myself, and I cannot feel guilt or remorse for anything Ive done wrong
- I am obsessed with horror movies/ crime investigation/ murder/ gore/ violence
- I prefer being alone, I have no friends
- I wear a mask to everyone around me to make them think I'm a really good person
- I have no idea what I want to do with my life
- I have an urge to break laws/rules (been this way since i was a little girl)
- I am constantly bored with life and feel empty inside
- I can form friends/relationships fast, but they never last long. I get bored
- I blame everyone else for my misery , I blame humanity and the universe, I have hate in my heart.
- I feel no empathy and will give no mercy to anyone
- I don't feel anything besides anger and depression and I fake every emotion when Im around people.
- I view people as objects/positions

Could this be BPD? or ASPD? my therapist said she does not want to tell me. No therapy is working for me. Im just lost.

Can someone please help me out, what does this sound like to you. All the symptoms I provided I feel to the extreme. I am never happy.

What can be the cure for me to feel stuff others feel?

[trucker]

I feel so sorry for you, it's sad to hear this. And phsycopath...

[arne33]

I would rather call this symptoms of a Sociopath/Psychopath, or you're extremely Bipolar.

Just try researching all three (hell, that's what I would do).

[ahanu]

Psycopath..

[collyer]

Try some weed..

[ayize]

I didn't read much of what you wrote. We all have mental problems. You just have more than the average that HAS been diagnosed or tried to get help.