Long story, should i meet with my cousins? I would be greatfull if you read it all?

[beacher]

Well this is a LONG story but I'll shorten it up as much as I can, if you misunerstood something because I left it out I'll update the question. So, where do I start? My mom, oh god. She was a poison to the whole family. She partied,cheated,did drugs, sold drugs, drank, smoked, lied, sometims stripped, would leave us, (as in my brothers, Adam (24) Jaime (21) and me (13)) with ANYONE just to go to the bar. My dad knew most of what she did, but couldn't stop it as he worked from 5 AM to 10PM, sometimes later, everyday. I don't remember a lot of those times because I was 5 or 6. Anyway, they got divorced, my dad got custody of us, I think adam was over 18 though, or still in jail. Anyways, dad let me see mom even though I wasn't aloud to see mom, uncle kenny, or aunt carry, because they all did drugs and partied ect ect. That made things worse. Mom lied, gt carry put in jail, dated kenny (carry is her sister, kenny her brother in law) for a long time so I got pissed off because I was 8and knew by thn what wrong and good was. She said dad was not letting me talk to her, not truw! Anyways, she guilted me, made me feel like I was wrong, she's very maiplultive, and we talked again. I still hung out with my cousins, kristi, kaira, and kenny, all the time at their house s long as dad watched us. Sometimes they came to our house. I was always aloud to be arund them, just not their parents,but the only wa to meet most of the time was at their parents. A lot of stuff happend, I don't think I can describe it all right now. Too long, too hard to remember, I blocked some of this out when I was little, so its very vauge, just lots of drugs, random people, and fighting, and crying. Anyway, I don't talk to mom, kenny, or carrey. I know what happend now, and what will happen again if I'm around them. Mom broke this family apart, into different states even. Its unstable for everyone. Anyway, last month, I ran into kenny (my cousin) at walmart. His dad as there, but he wasn't around us. We taked a little bit, I barely recognized him, he's tallr and not fat now! XD but I explained that its not hat I didn't want to be around him, its about his parents. He doesn't like them much either, and h had to leave, because his ad saw me and we knew nothing good would come from that. Kaira tried to add me on facebook, she has for a year now. I was scared, but I finlly said yes. She posted that she misses me. I want to get to talk to them again, I don't think anything bd will happen but it always does, someones always a backstabber! Someone always over hears a conversation! Should we talk again? I know they know right from wrong, but jaime visited and uncle kenny wouldn't let him visit them, kairas 18, but she may not have a car, anywas kennys still a dick. Wha should I do? Their parents won't let them leave even f they say their going out with a friend. Jaime said they couldn't meet, they donthave cells so they couldn't even talk! Thanks so much for reading! Sorr for the typos, I'm on a touch screen phone, not used to it.

[muireach]

How old are your cousins now? You should keep in touch with the cousins.it doesn't sound like they did anything wrong. Keep chats short on fb n don't talk about other family members n don't let then chat about other family memebers. Keep things simple