What i it with this girl ... why cant I get over her ?

[gabrielo19]

So here is the low down... I am having a hard time with this girl, she keeps coming in and out of my life, we met while she was visiting home ( she studies abroad ) and it was a whirlwind romance, and a very deep chemical and physical connection. she ticks many boxes for me, she is sporty, intelligent, and she has a lot of energy. after 4 months she had to go back to the USA to study, and so I agreed to get engaged so as to commit to each other, but she pretty much threw tantrums, until she got what she wanted - a court wedding ... I decided that I would sell my business and house and go over to her, as she did not want to come back home, and so I did, and I know you should truly get to know somebody before you marry them, but the truth is that I still do love her...

As it turns out, she has not been in a relationship for longer than a year, and sees a physcologist, for Adult ADD, she is an only child who recently lost an abusive mother to cancer, and suffers from narcissism and destructive behavior. she is 29 yrs old, and cant hold down a job, she has 2 degrees, and is studying law right now, but had a job that she defrauded for thousands of dollars by getting shop refunds on the product they were supposed to destroy.

I landed up not being able to endure the constant fighting (she describes herself as an alpha female, type A) and came back home after 6 months. I really feel like i did everything i could to keep her happy - ... clean her chaotic apartment, made her food, did her washing, tried to take her out for meals etc, but it was never enough, I remember having to fetch her at 2am in the mornings from her temp job, in the freezing cold whilst recovering from pneumonia, and having to put up with her friends who gave me marijuana cookies and not telling what was in it... which sent me into this paranoid state (I dont do drugs) and then she was screaming at me because I would not get in the car with her and her friends whilst they were high...

Well it turns out that I filed for a divorce because she was just too much for me, constant fighting, and I never felt like I was important to her. I felt like she loved me, but just that perhaps she is incapable of having a relationship. Now she keeps coming home and just before she does I will hear from her, a few weeks before, sweet as pie, and asks if i am seeing anyone, and can we hookup etc. well she just came back again and asked me to pick her up at the airport, her dad is out of town for a week, and then she blows me off and says she is spending time with a friend in a nearby town, can I pick her up in 2 or three days, then when I tell her I am coming down on that day, she says oh sorry, I have a nail and hair appointment, dont worry my dad is coming in next week, I will just see you down there... I could see you after gym for dinner if you like... this type of thing annoys me, i feel like I am being made an option, not a priority, and it just makes me really sad because obviously i still have feelings for her, and now it getting to the point where I am starting to doubt wether it is me that is the problem or is it her... she has all the time in the world to put up pics of her partying with friends down there at nightclubs, but cant make time to see me, only when she has nothing better to do. I am not sure if this is because she is a n only child or because she just doesnt care like she says she does...
I wish it was easy to just walk away, because that is what I would do, it has been two year now, and i have not dated other women, and I am not able to move on ... help.