girls cry and bring tears easily but i despite being girl many times (not everytime) not able to cry. I have been very sad and depressed a number of times, but i just cant cry. Not that it happens every time, sometimes if i am deeply hurt or someone actually hurt me very bad at that time i cried, but on many other events I didn't understand why i couldn't able to cry even though feeling sad, its really weird. For eg: when my father died i couldn't cry and bring tears even though feeling loss of him and i had to fake tears (only faked tears not emotions) with the help of glycerin because indians esp. ladies are very judgmental, if i dont bring tears they might badmouth me that i m selfish and hard hearted girl and not regretting my father's death, so i had to fake tears so that people don't talkback about me. Now actually in india, a girl leaves her parent's home and join her husband and in-laws and they will be her real family from then, and she will be just guest in her parents home, this is the tradition, so naturally every girls cry in their marriage during bidaai (farewell) as she feel she will only be guest in her own parents home. But i was not able to cry on my marriage during bidaai (farewell) despite sad, not that i was happy with partner or marriage and excited to join him because it was arranged marriage so i was not really much happier about it, and i knew i will miss my parents but for some reason not able to bring tears, and if indian bride dont cry people find it weird but i couldn't help it. So many times i am feeling sad and emotional and it is also sad event but am not able to bring tears even though am supposed to.
Sometimes when i feel really bad it kinda helps to cry but the tears wont come. Do you think there might be something wrong with my eyes? Like maybe i am producing less or irregular tears?
Sometimes when im desperate to cry, i dont blink and stare at the ceiling but it doesnt help cos i wanna cry for real and let emotions out and that.

