I was a victim of medical malpractice in 2009. I suffered a nerve injury which is likely permanent in my left arm thanks to a person who didn't know how to draw blood properly.
I can't turn to sweets anymore since I've gained weight as a result. I tried a counselor and she let me down. Taking my money and smiling when I cry in front of her as I explain my injury. So counselors are no good either.
Doing stuff that distracts me is ok, but sooner or later I remember the injury.
I can't exercise as well as I used to, playing piano hurts too.
In the past I took pain killers of prescription strength and they doped me up, made me dizzy and sleepy until I drew the line, so medicine and drugs are not an option for me.
I wear heat pads to decrease the edge of the pain, but they burn my skin and harden after some hours. Capcasin cream is ok but it stays in the skin for a long time and it's hard to get it off after it starts burning.
I feel desperate, alone, misunderstood. Doctors avoid involvement with my injury because they don't want to be hassled with being involved in a lawsuit. I have been waiting to prove my injury through MRN for a year now. One long painful year during which I endured mediocre limited medical tests, being denied medical care, painful nerve conduction studies, and traumatizing negation from doctors who don't care.
Since my options are so limited, what would you recommend I do?
I am 22 and miss my old life where my arm was not injured and I was free.

