Okay so I have been with my boyfriend for just over eight months and we plan to get engaged in September. Before anyone says this is too early or anything, we both know that we are made for each other and nothing will ever stop me from loving him. However, I think this may be part of the problem.
When I met my boyfriend, he was into smoking weed on social occasions, as was I, and in the end it was the catalyst that resulted in us getting together. However, more recently, smoking has become more than just a social thing. When my parents went away on holiday a few weeks ago we ended up smoking an entire ounce in 6 days and it was relentless but we had an amazing time. However since then, I think I may have become addicted, because I cannot sleep, eat or feel motivation to do anything and all I can think about is when I will next get to smoke up again. What is worse is my boyfriend has gone back home for 3 weeks [he lives about 200 miles away from me but we live together at uni] and he has ordered in some more stuff for when I go to visit him. However, he has been smoking up every night since he got back up there and what is worse is he has lied to me about it. He promised me that he wouldn't smoke up on his own and I find out through his friends that he has been because he has told them. I just thought I could trust him more than anyone and to find out he has lied to me like that, especially when I am suffering from this withdrawl, feels like the worst feeling in the world.
Not only this but I am currently studying a law degree at university and the job I hope to go into requires random drug testing and the requirement that applicants have not used drugs within the previous year, so I know that if I ever apply I will have to quit anyway but I just can't bring myself to tell my boyfriend that I will have to give up the thing that brought us close and allow him to still continue using when it is what I want as well.
Thanks for listening and any advice would be appreciated because I just feel so confused right now. Breaking up with him isn't an option because I just feel like I can't live without him.

