Mother and son alienated by mother's disability?

[jomei69]

Everybody jumped in and offered advice on my son because I'm a hemiparalytic. (Hemorrhagic stroke.) I look like a drunk because half my body is paralyzed. and I neither drink nor take drugs. This continued and even my own mother took care of my son and told me I was better off signing custody of my son over to her. My own sister in law weaned him off my breast when he was 4 months old. This was when I still loved him. Now I don't because everybody, not just relatives but people like my next door neighbor and people around town butted in where they weren't welcome and gave me unwelcome advice. Keep in mind that no judge ever took away custody from me and I have no police record. Now I do not even speak to my only child and I dislike seeing his jeering face. It seems I lost my bonding w/ him. Am I a bad mother? I did my best and took him to the park, to the play, etc. when he was a toddler.
Does this make sense to anybody else,that the mother could lose her ability to "bond" w/ her child?

[jocheved]

Everybody jumped in and offered advice on my son because I'm a hemiparalytic. (Hemorrhagic stroke.) I look like a drunk because half my body is paralyzed. and I neither drink nor take drugs. This continued and even my own mother took care of my son and told me I was better off signing custody of my son over to her. My own sister in law weaned him off my breast when he was 4 months old. This was when I still loved him. Now I don't because everybody, not just relatives but people like my next door neighbor and people around town butted in where they weren't welcome and gave me unwelcome advice. Keep in mind that no judge ever took away custody from me and I have no police record. Now I do not even speak to my only child and I dislike seeing his jeering face. It seems I lost my bonding w/ him. Am I a bad mother? I did my best and took him to the park, to the play, etc. when he was a toddler.
Does this make sense to anybody else,that the mother could lose her ability to "bond" w/ her child?

for starters it is a bit inexcusable to not bond with your child, but you are not bad, just stressed, if people keep bothering you about it just say back off, i know what im doing, i know it is a bit harsh but when family helps, that is understandable, but neighbors, they are going into personal matters. if you want to start to rebond take him to an icecream place, rent a dvd, talk to him about girls and ''cooties'' once you see a smile im sure you will want to start a relationship with your son again, also dont worry half the people in the world look drunk and most of them dont have much of a decent reason. ;) hope it rebuilds