Me and my ex broke up 4 months ago. but it wasn't a good break up and we went out over a year and a bit. Basically he's an A hole but he was lovely at times, but he did drugs, (mainly pot but others too) and sometimes i felt like he picked it over me. Anyway we broke up, he cut me off and didn't want to try and work it out. We did NC for 2 months until he contacted me again after that 2 months.
Now we try and do NC and we do it like for a few weeks then either of us snaps. and we've been apart for 4 months now, but over the weekend he told me he really loved me and still does. Last night we argued over txt cause sometimes we end up blaming who did wrong, etc how we hurt each other and get angry at each other. But we always shrug it off in a way and forget about it.
But i'm so depressed when I don't talk to him. like everytime we say goodbye, like i always wonder what hes doing, if he misses me, and i still love him heaps despite him hurting me a lot. He also told me he missed me and being together, but i don't think he wants to get back again ...
I need to get over this boy. how do i do it? Im really depressed cause i feel like i have no support and i miss him. my friends are busy with their own lives and relationship, and i'm usually by myself and a abit anti social cause I don't want to talk to anyone except for him. I need to get over him, by myself, how do i do it? any tips? I really want to focus on getting into second year law, but instead of studying im depressed and cry in bed. do i block him on fb or do i block his number? how do i stop thinking about him? i need to focus on myself

